Spoonful of Sugah

I haven’t visited here in awhile.  Things are just a bit too overwhelming right now.  I’m experiencing first hand what it’s like to have the person I love most in this world away for a year of deployment overseas. 

I knew it was coming and I thought I was prepared.  I understood what it meant in theory.  I understood that physically we’d be away from eachother for a year’s worth of time.  I understood that we’d miss eachother.  I understood that it would be difficult at times but that we’d make it through.  I understood that the time away might even make our relationship stronger.   I honestly had no idea how difficult this year of our life would be.

We are very fortunate that we get to speak on the phone daily.   During these conversations I try really hard to hide the pain and worry from him.  (I’m not always good at it, but I try really hard) After all, he’s working 24/7 in a third world country day in and day out so that WE (You, yes YOU!, me, my family, your family and all of our neighbors in between) can live our safe and nestled lives here in the USA.   He gets up early each morning, says his prayers, puts on that beige & green camouflage uniform, and begins his day by eating in the same kitchen which a dozen rats (yes, those lovely large rodents with the really long tails) ramsacked throughout the night.   One of the main things I hear him voice over and over is how he really hopes he’s making a difference.  He CARES about the things he’s doing and the impact that he is making.

 So, I ask myself, “What in the world do I have to complain about????”  How can I sit here in my little suburban town with a nice roof over my head and plenty of food in my clean kitchen and complain about all that I am missing? 

I’m not here to gripe, and I’m certainly not here to share all the private details of my relationship with the world (or the 5 people that read my blog!), but I do need to remind those who read my blog to take the time to remember those who serve and why they are serving.  Try to remember that aside from all of the talk in politics and the debate on whether or not we should be at WAR, there are men and women right this very moment fighting for their very lives so that we can sit around and argue over who is the best candidate.  These men and women BELIEVE in what they are fighting to protect and they are doing this for US.  The families of these men and women SACRIFICE every single moment that they don’t get to share with those whom they love.  The next time you want to scream out to the world about what is and what is not worthwhile, just please remember that the woman or man standing next to you may have recently lost a loved one, or may be missing a loved one like crazy, to this cause that you find so unworthy. 

This little “spoonful” tonight is dedicated to a former roomie who knew how to keep my deepest secrets embedded in the blue walls. 

Tonight we made “Sausage and Potatoes” for dinner.

 Here’s the recipe:

Ingredients:  sweet italian sausage, red potatoes, 1 red pepper, 1 green pepper, 1 onion, italian dressing, italian seasonings…voila!  Soooooooo easy, cut it all up, put it into a casserole dish, drizzle (more like douse!)  it w/ italian dressing and throw it in the oven for an hour and 1/2 or so at about 375.  Serve with some good bread and enjoy.

Tonight while I was cutting up the peppers I was thinking about how many of my recipes hold the memory of a person who at one time opened their heart to me.  I am thankful for these memories. 

The girls decided they would take the seeds from the peppers, put them in a wet papertowel and see if they will grow.  Aren’t children divine?

And if the saying, “you are what you eat” holds any truth, then, Mansuetude, I guess tonight I would reply that I am “sausage and potatoes”. 

Peace and love to a certain soldier tonight whose impact on my world I will never have the adequate words to describe. 

Just for tonight, THIS is my spoonful~!